Doubts, doubts, and more doubts

Who am I to think I can create and maintain a website, all by my own non-technical self?  In the 80s, I wanted to keep my Selectric typewriter instead of the computer all the secretaries were getting.  I struggled mightily with each new version of software (and I still do!)

I learned email because I had to.  I learned to use the internet because it was required when I went back to school.  And I felt like my cell phone was smarter than me before “smart phone” was ever heard.

For once, I would forego frugality and pay an expert to build this website, but that would take rent and grocery money.  So, after weeks of reading library books and praying, I am building the website.  It feels like the first time I jumped into the water, into my Daddy’s strong arms.  “Catch me!  Here I come!”

The leitmotif in the song of my life, “lack of finances” has repeatedly forced me to face fear and self-doubt and attempt the impossible.  And my heavenly Father has always more than just “caught” me as I leapt. He has carried me on His wings, and we have soared like eagles.

Together, we equipped Sharon to live as a mature adult.  Together, we did, indeed, give her the gift of an unjealous heart.  Together, we went back to school, began a new career, and relocated across country to be a happy Nana.  Now the dream He planted 30 years ago is becoming reality.  I am actually getting the writing out to readers!

As I jump into this project today, I am happily sitting at my writing table, which was my daughter’s dining table for eight years. And I sing the comforting lyrics from Matt Redman:

“Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me.” 

http://mattredman.com/music/

 

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